You're not being silly. When I started this 15 years ago, I had already been working on compartmentalizing 15 years prior to that. I pretty much had my emotions in check by year 5. It takes something like my Father dying to break it. And trust me, I'm STILL broken after 9 months. That Jeanie ain't going back in the bottle. But pets dying? I'm pretty stone cold about it. I've come to realize this is NOT a strength. I've pretty much lost out on almost all things I should feel. You grieve. I'm actually jealous you can. Don't try not too. Learn from my mistake.I never have in almost 25 years of aquarium. I've been remorseful, upset, disappointed, unhappy, but I've never been crushed like this. I'm not going into details, but I'm watching him breathe his last breaths and I know he will be dead tomorrow morning, and my heart is broke. I'm just wondering if anyone else has ever been hit hard like this by a fish loss or if I'm being silly.
