I totally understand your frustration. I feel like I can usually follow what people are saying but certain areas of discussion make me feel both blind
and illiterate…
That said this is not my first “brand new to a hobby with lots of breadth and depth” rodeo so I assume that is largely due to me still being relatively new and inexperienced and that stuff that is currently mysterious to me will come with time
for people with lots of knowledge in a particular area the jargon comes naturally not only because they are comfortable with it, but also because it is truly more precise than plain language and for a person that knows the difference by heart that generally matters. A lot of people also take knowledge they have had for a long time for granted and assume that everyone knows it just as well as they do
It has always been my belief that anyone can learn just about anything they want if they are motivated enough. Different people have different starting points though and also digest new knowledge at different rates. Try not to compare yourself to people who have been living the reefing life for decades, they have simply had a lot more time over which to digest knowledge. Remind yourself that as long as you keep learning new things, you are making progress, and it doesn’t matter if that’s faster or slower, ahead or behind anyone else, because it’s your progress alone
Anyway keep at it, we will get there eventually as long as we don’t give up