Doing ok. Had to accept some realities today during meeting w/Oncologist. Spent 10 yrs saying don’t tell me the %’s, cause I will always be in the % that defies the odds ~ and I did; each and every time. Until now. The lesions throughout spine, pelvis, hips and now the right femur have caught up. I will be using a walker and I cry even to type that word. I feel 35 yrs old in my head, and I love to be outdoors doing cool stuff. And how the F am I supposed to climb up on my awesome new reefing ladder (just watch me biatches)!
I also don’t want to talk about this on R2R; even though I bring it up all the time in my build thread. I do so for two reasons, 1) what if that helps someone else and encourages them in whatever they are going through, and 2) you guys ask me occasionally and how can I not answer a question coming from love? Not to mention I don’t have anyone to really express how I feel; I usually give the edited version to family as it’s just too much to bare after all these years.
So, I’m thinking that moving forward here on R2R that I won’t discuss and if anyone wants that type of update, please just DM me. It’s clear I’m an open book, but I just want the public facing Esaboe to be less C girl and more reef gurl.
Love ya all!
