I need 2 vent...

wicked demon · Mar 31, 2010

Maybe I have no life..... I do not care anymore....and I don't have any1 here who give a ratsazz....just need to speak my mind, left handed, one letter at a time. I am not a usually a whiner.
I hope there is a hell, and heaven.
The reason for this wish is this;
I pay forward. I do not cheat steal, or lie.
But... I seem to come up screwed short.
I would never cheat on my wife of 13+ years but am always under suspicion.
I have found thousands of dollars and I still gave it to who it belonged to even though I could have taken with no reprocussion. (and I am life long ghetto)
In am the most understanding persuasive father and my child hates me for even trying.
I put myself out (big time) for my *friends*, fellow reefers, total strangers even.
WHERE IS KARMA??? what the heck??? 32 YRS and this?? really??? I cant even keep what I work my butt off 4.
makes me want to eat a bullet.:crossedlips:

AlexStinson · Mar 31, 2010

anytime I feel like that i just think back to the starving africans... i mean... they eat flies, seriously flies. When was the last time you were hungry enough to eat flies? There ya go.

sexycorals · Mar 31, 2010

hey dude. last thing you should think about is the last sentaence.. IF YOu need to talk call me.. shoot me a PM and well talk.. I never met you but hey.. maybe i can help by lending an ear..

WilD ReeFer · Mar 31, 2010

Keep your head up. If you need someone to talk to feel free to pm me.

wicked demon · Mar 31, 2010

sexycorals said:
hey dude. last thing you should think about is the last sentaence.. IF YOu need to talk call me.. shoot me a PM and well talk.. I never met you but hey.. maybe i can help by lending an ear..

people who r suicidal don't talk about it first (ime), i just needed to speak my mind. i appreciate the kind words, I am just in a really crappy mental place right now.

whyzee429 · Mar 31, 2010

we've all been there in one way or another. stay strong.

BlazinNano · Mar 31, 2010

Dude just stick it out. Alot of us are in a crappy place right now. I mean I lost my job, lost my apartment, me and my fiance now live about 45 mins away from each other, had to move back in with my parents, my phone rings about 30 times a day from people wanting money and all I can tell them is I am sorry. Just take a deep breathe. Things always work themselves out you just have to let time run its course. Everybody is on hard times right now. I would say I have more friends who are not working then friends that are working. We just have to sit down, talk things out, rework some stuff, and things will change. Sometimes it looks easier just to give up or quit something to make life better but in the long run it makes it worse.
Don't give up on your faith, whatever it is you believe in
Your Family, they may not show it at the time but they love you and need you to be stong
Your goals and dreams, without them you have nothing

Just bite the bullet but not the metal one, the one that will make you strong.

Rotknee · Mar 31, 2010

WD, I hope you find inspiration from reading this. It helps me every now and again when things get screwy for me.

NanoNano · Mar 31, 2010

Read the book called The Road and realize how good you have it.

I'm not joking either. That book puts a lot into perspective.

mr_X · Mar 31, 2010

wicked demon said:
Maybe I have no life..... I do not care anymore....and I don't have any1 here who give a ratsazz....just need to speak my mind, left handed, one letter at a time. I am not a usually a whiner.
I hope there is a hell, and heaven.
The reason for this wish is this;
I pay forward. I do not cheat steal, or lie.
But... I seem to come up screwed short.
I would never cheat on my wife of 13+ years but am always under suspicion.
I have found thousands of dollars and I still gave it to who it belonged to even though I could have taken with no reprocussion. (and I am life long ghetto)
In am the most understanding persuasive father and my child hates me for even trying.
I put myself out (big time) for my *friends*, fellow reefers, total strangers even.
WHERE IS KARMA??? what the heck??? 32 YRS and this?? really??? I cant even keep what I work my butt off 4.
makes me want to eat a bullet.:crossedlips:

maybe the reason "karma" isn't working for you is that you are expecting a payoff for your good deeds. if it makes you feel good not to cheat on your wife, there's your prize.

foxyb · Mar 31, 2010

im a strong believer in karma as well man
the world works in mysterious ways keep ya head up

revhtree · Mar 31, 2010

DISCLAIMER: You all have your beliefs and I am not forcing my post on anyone. If you don't believe what I say that is fine, if you don't want to read what I believe then skip my post and go to the next. Thanks.

Hey bro we all go trough times in our life where we feel down and out and feel as if were headed down a road to nowhere. You got to realize that there is more to life than just the "norm" that society leads us to believe. Success, failure, happiness is not defined by who you are, your education, your social status, but it is defined by who you are in Jesus Christ. That seems like a hard thing to find out but it really is not. See I believe (and according to the bible) that people try and fill a void in life through relationships, things, and a host of other things when all along what was missing was the one thing that mattered the most and that is a relationship with Jesus. See stuff and people will make you happy temporarily, but only Jesus can satisfy the soul. Your having a soul problem and there is only one solution.

1 Peter 5:7
Give all your worries and cares to God, for he cares about you.

I could go on and on, but again I know the solution personally and I know from experience. If you or anyone else wants to know more then please PM me. :)

CHALICEKEEPER · Mar 31, 2010

I live by this, somebody always has it worse. Keep a positive, happy attitude and things will get better :) :) :)

droblack · Mar 31, 2010

You obviously are a person of strong character and high values, and aren't finding yourself met with the same from others much right now. It can be frustrating giving so much and not feeling the reciprocity. I think one of the secrets of life is that we have to be ourselves and do what is right even though it often does not pay off. Hope you feel better soon.

JNye · Mar 31, 2010

money comes and goes, do your best, caulk the rest, life's just not fair...so keep YOUR values. You just can't make everyone happy, i stopped trying a longtime ago. nothing earth shattering here i know, just a few things i always try to remember before i start getting too low...good luck bro.

cageburn · Mar 31, 2010

ya man i can see where your comming from but you got to realize, your a great person, your a dying breed, even if the karma hasnt shown screw it dude, being proud of who you are and what you do is the most important becuase in the end man yourself is all your facing, money makes things tough yes, but in tough times those who keep there composure are rewarded with happiness instead of stress, lifes a roller coster we all know this, just hang on for the ride man, ur doing the right thing dont change who u r.

RBursek · Mar 31, 2010

Rev,
I also have been out of work for just over a year, my car was totaled out in Sept of last year so since then I do not have a car, and until I get a job can not afford one, my unemployment may run out in June if there is not another extension, and I am single, and without a SO so I am on my own, but I read a daily religious book of strength and I believe God does have a plan for me, it might not be my plan but I know He has one for me. And Rev, as far as I am concerned you do not need to give a disclaimer here for your life beliefs and occupation, which is one in the same for clerical persons, unless you are selling it, which you do not do, you just let us know it is there if we want to accept it and join in if we want to.
Wicked Demon,
Last summer I was not just in the situation I am in but a suffering alcoholic, with some PMs to Rev, a few months at my brothers ranch working and drying out last fall, I am now not drinking and I quite smoking also. Now back home but in the same situation, without the alcohol and cigarettes, and a better outlook on life and myself.

RBursek · Mar 31, 2010

Wicked Demon,
the good thing is when it looks and is so bad, and at the total bottom, there is only one way it can go, BETTER!!!!!!!!!!!

650-IS350 · Mar 31, 2010

somebody always has it worse Yep, look at it this way... others don't have lives, live in the streets, no jobs, no food nor roof over their heads. Some don't have families... everytime I'm ****** at the world, I see this in the streets and say to my self, I'm lucky to have a great job, a wife , good family, a big house, sweet cars, I have enough extra money to mess with reefing as well. so although i'm not swimming in $$$$$ or life is not always 100% good to me.... I have a good life. Brings me back to reality that I don't have it that bad and makes me thankfull everyday for what I have and earned or what is given to me.