Dont mean this to sound blunt but if God didnt have a future for You You wouldnt be here. The fact that youre still here tells Me You still want to be here and so does God. The enemy can not hurt You but He can play with Your head. Do You have a Church/Pastor? If so I would recommend consuling with Him rather than a "medical" consuler. When You start having these thoughts pray, not to yourself but out loud. Tell the enemy to leave you alone in GODS name.
I will be praying for You and complete calmness and peace
I will be praying for You and complete calmness and peace