Started my day with compassion

[Paul B]

I have an expert badge for m-16 Eiffel and also expert badge in hand gernade throwing ,

Paulie, the guys who failed Hand Grenade throwing are no longer here. :rolleyes:

 

[code4]

They just seen how large you were and figured you were older.

 

[Paulie069]

They just seen how large you were and figured you were older.

Yup that’s exactly what happened

 

[Paulie069]

I just wanna say that there are a bunch of good memories from my childhood it wasn’t all doom and gloom I definitely loved my grandparents oddly enough they were from my dads side,,,But they always took me to the beach every weekend both days sat and sun we would get there so early nobody else was there yet and be last to leave long day but I loved it,, so not all bad,, but it’s just getting started,, so hold on it’s gonna get bumpy depending how much I’m gonna tell
Promised @rev I’d keep it PG. maybe PG-13
Lol

 

[DHill6]

I have a feeling quite a few of us are following along. Karma cookies are stacking up for you.(:

 

[Mastiffsrule]

I have a feeling quite a few of us are following along. Karma cookies are stacking up for you.:)

Mmmm. Cookies. :) I know who makes the best, @Paulie069;Woot

Luckily ? I have a burned beyond recognition turkey dinner to eat the wife made waiting for me:eek: . No cookies 4 me

 

[Paulie069]

Mmmm. Cookies. :) I know who makes the best, @Paulie069;Woot

Luckily ? I have a burned beyond recognition turkey dinner to eat the wife made waiting for me:eek: . No cookies 4 me

I also make real good Brownies, but please only have half at a time

 

[Paulie069]

I have a feeling quite a few of us are following along. Karma cookies are stacking up for you.(:

 

[Paulie069]

Hope so kinda hoping that somehow this story has a positive impact on somebody ,, maybe they will see by putting yourself out there and open up maybe little bit vulnerable,, then they would realize how much pressure it takes away/ plus in a forum like this nobody can see you cry
I’d love to hear from everybody that is actually following along my babbling story
Much lov R2R

 

[Paulie069]

Ok so I left off with bootcamp and now is when things get a little darker,, so I’m 16 with pocket full of cash and it’s summer so I’m sure you can see where this is going
I’ve had dabbled in drugs a little bit in the past as a teenager but things were about to get out of control. It was summer of 85, and cocaine was running rampant ,, and was real pure n cheap and I remember being up 3-4 days at a clip just packing my nose with as much powder as possible, after awhile it was not doing the trick anymore, wasn’t killing my feelings and memory as much as I wanted,, I just wanted to bury my childhood as deep as possible wishing all along I would just OD and get it over with. I became obsessed with this thought for very long time. I can recall one night I’m in a hotel room with these three girls partying for days
I had cooked up an ounce of freebase ( was before crack) and we just kept smoking and smoking for days not even getting dressed or anything, after 2 days a buddy pops in with some angel dust PCP and some acid tabs. I remember I’m smoking free base then I smoke 2 angel dust joints n eat 3-4 tabs of acid. Last thing I remember clearly is saying in my head “ yea this should do it I’m finally gonna be free” well I was wrong,, I guess I OD and the ambulance was able to get me to hospital quick enough and I woke up 4 days later in a bed with tubes in wires everywhere. I started crying and a nurse ran in my room and asked if I was ok. I sad “ No I’m not ok I’m supposed to be dead what gives you people the right to take that away from me” After that I was a wreak taking anything I could to be numb
Moving on to 18 I started dealing tons of weight in weed n come I was making so much money I bought a 88 IROC convertible brand new off showroom floor,, I remember one time getting pulled over in town (all cops knew me) and cop goes know why I pulled you over, I said no then he goes ,, I work 60hrs a week and don’t have a car this nice,, I go well you should get a better job then you wanna work for me?? That didn’t go so good and I was in jail that night till mom bailed me out
Things continued like that for a year and at 19.5 The cops raided my house but only found an ounce of pot. The real bad thing was this was the time they came out with the school zone law 1000ft thing My mothers house was 946ft from zone so I went to state prison for two years no questions asked no probation no excuses two years and that’s that. When the other guys in jail asked me why I was ther I’d tell em. 54ft ,,,,, gonna stop here only a couple more bad years till EVERYTHING CHANGES for the better.
Hope someone is following along

 

[fishguy242]

yep still here paulie :)

 

[Paulie069]

yep still here paulie :)

My brother sup gonna jump to your thread for a sec

 

[DHill6]

I’m following.

 

[virtual reality]

I am also.

 

[Paulie069]

Thank you all for taking interest in my babbling story of my life ,, but I got some more heart wrenching stories to get out and share much love for your thoughts and prayers r2r

 

[deetu]

When I first talked to and met Paulie, was taken back a bit but also had an instant feeling of being safe with him. What his wife said about taco is so fitting. He is so friendly and giving, you can't but love the guy
(can picture you proudly saying you were only 16 lol)
So glad we became friends
And since I'm a Christian, I try to always give somehow... Sometimes it was just smiling at someone that looked down. Looking forward to when that can happen again. lol... just realized that I will look at someone and say, "I'm smiling" ;Happy

 

[Paulie069]

I knew we were brothers, somehow and now it all makes sense; Same mothers!


I stayed inside all-day today, and my neighbors are probably happy! :) It's the little things, right!



How do I nominate my brother for the Hospitality Badge? I have a hard time following instructions on here, Rev. so I'm just gonna leave this right here.

Big brother hugs @Paulie069

Still waiting on that badge lol

 

[xxkenny90xx]

Great story @Paulie069, somewhat reminds me of the Ken shamrock life story book I just read. Anyways I also had a troubled childhood and did some time when I turned 18 so I'm really enjoying and more or less relating to your writing.

OK R.A.O.K (well sort of random), I got a call from my cousin (who I never hear from) who is homeless in Portland, OR late last night that he was hurt so at 6 this morning I drove 2.5 hrs down there, loaded all of his stinky belongings into my car and took him to the emergency room. I also gave him my new work gloves and the boots I was wearing. Just now getting home, my feet are cold! Unfortunately his mind is not right and I'm not sure that he appreciated any of it

 

[Paulie069]

Ok left off with going to prison and I don’t wanna dwell on it but I did use the time wisely I went to school and got my diploma from the Nj state prison system doesn’t sound glamorous but at least I got it ,, was in some fights did a little time in the hole ( jail inside of jail) and saw my share of racial tensions, I truly believe that jail saved my life but o still had few good years of screw ups left in me
When I got out I was on parole for a year and part of it was I had to go to AA meetings every day,, I didn’t mind because it was like a tinder before there was tinder,, I hooked up so many times because the women had nothing else to do because they stopped drinking but kept making bad decisions,, I’m shocked I didn’t get any STDs came out clean as a whistle lol I also was dating my parole officer which made things easy on me and as soon as parole was over I never called her again (she was 44 I was 21)
So after all that I moved up north with my cousin and met the most awesome girl ever and fell in love,, but I still didn’t know how to be a good boyfriend and was ******* everything that walked by and said ok let’s do it, hey I’m a guy,, so let’s go baby. She got sick of my screwing around and dumped me after year n half(shocked lasted that long)
Well I was actually crushed even though it was my falt for being such a pig and I knew it but didn’t care as long as I was getting some. After the breakup I went into a drug bundle that lasted another two years
I felt that was only thing that loved me was,,,,drugs n booze sluts oh my,,,,Till one day I got arrested for
Drunk driving
No insurance
No registration
The plates on car were stolen from a car in parking lot of some supermarket
Had joint in astry
Eight ball of cocaine
And a bottle of whiskey half gone
Well next morning I woke up at home( have no idea how I got there) with a stack of charges thick as a phone book,, I decide I gotta go so I called a buddy In Utah and went to stay with him for awhile to let things settle down. Big mistake as Utah was like a candy store for me
I’ll take a break here n continue my story later
Much love my reef peeps/ thank you for letting me babble on about my horrible first half of life,, it gets lots better soon

 

[Paulie069]

Great story @Paulie069, somewhat reminds me of the Ken shamrock life story book I just read. Anyways I also had a troubled childhood and did some time when I turned 18 so I'm really enjoying and more or less relating to your writing.

OK R.A.O.K (well sort of random), I got a call from my cousin (who I never hear from) who is homeless in Portland, OR late last night that he was hurt so at 6 this morning I drove 2.5 hrs down there, loaded all of his stinky belongings into my car and took him to the emergency room. I also gave him my new work gloves and the boots I was wearing. Just now getting home, my feet are cold! Unfortunately his mind is not right and I'm not sure that he appreciated any of it

XX I’m sure he was thankful and also embarrassed about his situation, what you did for him was awesome and exactly what God would want you to do. It definitely shows your compassion and kindness that’s a lot of driving you did very selfless and I admire you for doing it. God Bless you my friend